my heart on social.

what lead me to time away from social media, in a world centered around it.

I don’t think it was all at once, but all at once my mind was made up.

I have taken breaks from social media time and time again. I break from it every sunday, but as I felt the summer approaching with my three small kids, I knew i wanted to be off of it for longer than a day or a month.

its not until I step away, do i realize how this tiny little app has affected my heart. I take time off of my phone every sunday as a day to rest and reset with my family. my faith is at the center of who I am and every sabbath I experience the rest and reset so I am comfortable with the thought of being away the apps. but its not until its away from my life for multiple days do I feel the anxious unnecessary hurry start to lift, unconscious comparison fade, giving me time back into my days to focus on the things I love so very much — as I considered getting rid of all social media for the spring and summer, I thought about this small business that I started only less than a year and a half ago. Many, if not all of my new clients come through social media. so this has been something I really had to consider. after praying about it, thinking about it, it felt so clear. there was nothing worth having if I was not being fully present in my one big beautiful life. it can feel good to show your life, but what if you chased feeling good and no one knowing (!!) what if, we chased resting well at night, and that being our favorite reward of the day well lived. what if we measured our days in how much we witnessed our children laughing, or how many times we opened our bible, or how many times we stopped to pray. I really believe that we all really do want that and somewhere along the way we get pulled into - well many different things - and one of them being social media.

I wonder what my three small children think of the world — and i love how much freedom comes when i slowed down enough to realize these were the things that mattered most to me. rest, faith, harmony, contentment, slowing down, sunsets, family dinners, praying together, reading books together, laughing together - healing my inner voice, listening, and not just numbing out with busying my mind with things that felt like they mattered - but truly didn’t.

So as I start spring and summer without social media, without apps on my phone that take my attention. my hope is that my three beautiful children and my wonderful husband see me pouring into our home, pouring into my faith, their faith, my children’s character, my husbands heart, hobbies that I love so much, discovered new creative outlets— and may they remember this season in our life as pure joy, with a mommy who decided this was more important.